About a year ago my world was severed in half as my husband and I separated and I wondered what my life held. I am happy to say that through shear power and determination my life a year later is peaceful, happy and I am stronger than ever.
I realized that while people called me brave for battling cancer, I never felt brave. I had no option, I needed to go through the steps and the outcome was not really in my hands. My life over the past year has made me feel brave. I chose every day to move forward. I chose to make decisions that would affect my financial well being. I chose happiness.
I could have chosen to wallow in sadness and shut out the world. Instead I opened myself up to new ideas, adventure and love. And I have received the same back in buckets. I have done things on my own that I am not sure I would have tackled before. I am proud of myself.
Support systems offered me a foundation to be able to build up from, but I feel more myself than I ever have. While I would have preferred not to have had to do what I did, I was left facing a fork in a road at many moments and I am happy that I chose strong, positive choices.
A year in review
- Separation
- Bought a house
- Put on a Christmas party
- Chopped Wood
- Shovelled Snow...hired a plowing service...fired a plowing service...shovelled snow
- Went on vacation
- Got comfortable dining out...by myself
- Laughed lots
- Changed jobs
- Tear of sorrow, tears of happiness
- Smiled at the smallest moments and held tight to them
- Started taking more photos
- Gave up caring what others think
- Started speaking out
- Took a leap of faith
- Chose to wake up happy
- Love, lots of love
- Surrounded myself with positive people
- New adventures
- New friends, old friends
- Surgery, healing
- Took back my health
- Said no when I didn't want to, without guilt
- Enjoyed the quiet moments
- Construction
- Asked others for help
- Stood still
I have always been a strong female, thanks to my mother. Today I feel like I could take on anything and succeed. Tomorrow might feel different, but that's the difference in ME. I don't think about tomorrow. I think about today and how to make each moment count. I am responsible for my own happiness, my own success and my own path. I am excited about the adventures which await me. So with heart in hand, my will and determination I face the fork in the road and walk confidently down the path not caring whether it is the "right one" but will face whatever comes head one.
Thank you for all of my family and friends and fur babies who have helped me over the past year in more ways than you could ever know. You have made me strong enough to walk on my own and for that I am forever grateful. Love to you all.
