Monday, July 22, 2013

What makes you happy

I recently read an article describing the 5 biggest regrets people have in their life. 5 Regrets I may not be at the end of my life yet, but I look back and I have very few regrets in my life and I feel that if I went back and changed them my life going forward would be different as well. I am lucky to have lots of love that surrounds me daily, I know who I am, and more importantly who I am not and I know what makes me happy in life. Here is jut a glimpse of things that make me happy:

1. My family. We may disagree but when the going gets tough I know they are there for me no matter what. The stories I could tell, but might be given the silent treatment for some of them. From my mother calling my father at work to blame him for events he could not control ie the cows on the highway to my middle brother and the stories he tells, he should have been a comedian or a politician. My extended family for the laughs we have had over poop..still wish they were about sex:)

2. Cartwheels and skipping. No matter how old I get, doing a cartwheel makes me feel like I am six years old again. This can also be felt with somersaults, skipping along or making bubbles in your milk.

3. Laying on my back and feeling the warmth of the sun. Lots of people complain about the heat but I am a sun worshipper all the way.

4. Laughter. I love the fits of laughing so hard that you try to stop only to start up again. Laughing until it hurts is the best.

5. Accomplishments. I may not have climbed Mount Everest, become the CEO of a company or found a cure for a disease, but I have been a good friend, wife, daughter, sister and fur baby momma for which I am proud. Being true to yourself is, in my opinion, your biggest accomplishment.

The Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others,
even to the dull and ignorant; they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble,
it's a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself.
Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
Max Ehrmann was an attorney turned philosopher-poet who live in Terre Haute, Ind. He spent his life wrestling with the realities of making a living and following his personal calling to a life of poetry, literature, and thought. He wrote A Prayer, which became a message of hope for thousands, but he is best known for Desiderata, which he wrote for himself, "because it counsels those virtues I felt myself most in need of." Max included this work as part of a personal Christmas greeting in 1933, and Desiderata's power and appeal have continued to reach out to and significantly affect readers ever since. He died in 1945.

Friday, July 12, 2013

In the swing of things

So a couple of my ladies and I have decided that retirement is <hopefully> not that far off and it is time to look towards the future. And what do most people do in retirement? Drink, eat, drive a golf cart/3 wheel bike around parks and golf.

So I guess it is time to take up golf since we know how to do the other pieces. We decided to go to the driving range a couple of times to see if we could actually hit the ball before making complete and utter asses of ourselves. Guess we should have thought about that before standing next to people who could hit the ball. I felt the breeze as my club went over the ball and spent a lot of time swatting away black flies. All in all I actually hit the ball quite a few times, even though some of them only rolled down the hill.

We decided golf lessons were needed. We hooked ourselves up with Don the golf guy. Don has a simple method to teaching golf and basically if you set yourself up right you will hit the ball. In the beginning we thought "easier said than done". After our first lesson we were thinking we had done well. After our second lesson DOGG was ecstatic (his actual word) about our progress.

While we are far from joining the PGA tour we might actually make it to a Par 3 course by Fall.

Some things to remember that we have learnt:
1. You may not need to wear golf shoes at the driving range but cute flip flops don't work either and cause the men folk to roll their eyes
2. You bend over to put the golf on the tee a lot so make sure your sports bra doesn't lift up over "the girls" and that your prosthetic is securely in place.
3. Hitting the ball into someone else's box is not an acceptable practice
4. If you don't practice in between lessons...it shows...!
5. There are a lot of "serious golfers" out there who shun the talk of my friends dating life openly...ahh they just wish she was interested in them
6. Using left handed clubs when you are right handed make things difficult but not impossible
7. Squealing from excitement when you hit the ball right causes you to be the centre of attention
8. WEAR BUG SCREEN...you cannot swat bugs with your irons, well you can you just wont kill anything
9. When it is hot out, a hat is good to avoid heat stroke
10. Always golf with close girl friends as they will laugh with you and at you all at the same time

Friday, July 5, 2013

Mixed Emotions

My father has gotten kidney stones almost every year for the past several years, but this is only the second time he has made it to the "blasting zone". Last week he came down at the crack of dawn and was almost home before I went to work. He was to come back a week later at a much more reasonable hour of the day for additional blasting. Yes he looked like he was starting his own beach with the amount of stones coming out of him.

I called down and they said he was in pre-op. So I ventured down to the hospital to go hang out with my momma in the waiting room for awhile. I have not driven to this hospital since my final sign off and had mixed feelings about walking through the doors. Poppa was on the tenth floor and chemo had been on the 11th. It felt odd as the elevator went up the floors.

I am excited to close this chapter in my life and move on and I think this elevator ride was a way to start the closure. Even though my dad had been in and out and the hospitals records had not been updated to show this by the time I got there, I am glad I went to the hospital. Sign off is one thing but closure is a whole other part of healing.

Wednesday, July 3, 2013

Ups and Downs

Life likes to throw you curve balls. It has been a while since I have taken the time to sit down and compile my thoughts. Lately my thoughts have been jumbled between home, work and looking out at the rainy weather isn't helping me either. Just when you think "what else can I handle", a ray of sunshine breaks through! 

I finally have my consultation appointment with my plastic surgeon. It is the best birthday present I could ask for and maybe I will be getting a boob job for Christmas! Ho Ho Hoooo!

In all of this craziness that is my life a moment of laughter came through:

The other day I decided I was going to mow the front lawn. It has been non stop raining lately and I saw a break in the rain and decided I had better get out there and mow it before it became a hay field. So I threw on a pair of shorts and a snug-ish t-shirt and off I went.

We have a "reel mower= manual" so stopping occasionally to talk to our neighbor and wave at one of our other neighbours gives me a moment to catch my breath. Finished the mowing and was a hot sweaty mess, so I went inside to take a shower and realized that my prosthetic was laying on the bed. I quickly look down and realized that I was currently the "one boob wonder". I guess if the neighbours had ever wondered about whether or not I had had surgery the rumor mill can stop. If it wasn't for embarrassing myself what would we all laugh at. sigh.